Friday, March 9, 2012

Don't judge me!

An issue that has always bothered me. Always been in the back of my head. I'm 30 years old, 5 foot 7 inches and am weighing about 130 pounds as of right now.  This i my nightmare.  It strangely effects my daily life, everything I do or think. Every time I eat something I have this instant guilt. I look down and see this HUMONGOUS stomach poking out at the desk or the table. I feel my sides over flowing my shirts and laughing at me when I move.

I'm suffering with his horrid fat life I'm living and I can't  stop eating.

I've never had it this bad, never in my  life. The most I weighed was like 125, How the fuck did I manage to get to this weight????

Please, don't judge me, don't tell me "oh girl your aren't fat"...  That doesn't help!!!  Any of you with any sort of weight issue know it doesn't make you feel any better to be told you aren't too fat or you aren't too skinny.  Shut the fuck up!! All I want to do is lose these 15 pounds I've packed on since I quit smoking.

I don't want to be fat anymore.  Help!

I've started running, as often as I can around the apartment complex and if  I can get  over that way tomorrow, I'm hoping to join the gym near home.  I'm trying to be optimistic. I'm a realist you know.  I want NEED to do this....  I CAN DO THIS.... Right?


  1. I am trying to focus on eating more protein meals and less starchy meals. It does work, but I guarantee that you aren't the HAWG I am!

    Personally, I think you look great:)

  2. I'm 5'7" and I weigh 145 pounds, and, as you would say, 'I rawk it!' The amount you weigh, may I say, is less important than how it, ahem, hangs. knowwhati'msayin'?


  3. Yes, you can do it :-) And those people who try and tell me "you look fine!" need a week with my achy knees and hips. I'm at least 75 pounds over weight, by the way, but don't look it because of my height.

  4. Great, you are all making me feel that much worse for tipping in at 162 at 5'7".

    Heaviest I have ever been in my life, post-wedding, and two injuries so I can't bust a move to burn some of this ass off.

    Have you ever had disordered eating? It's a tricky situation.

  5. Of course you can do anything you set your mind to do!

    Muscle weighs more than fat, so if you have been on that Gazzel (SP?) or running you may just have put on more muscle.

    My whole life has been a roller coaster. I've lost 60lbs 3 times. Now I need to lose about 30!

    Hang in thar!


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