Wednesday, December 26, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Lookie Lookie we made it through Christmas. Let me just tell you there are some many thoughts and feelings I could share with you all in regards to Christmas, 2012. But this is a post of What I'm Loving Wednesday, not what really irks the shit out of me. I'm a Monkey Butt so you know it's not hard to irk the shit out of me, stand back though, cause I'm a a pretty good aim!  

So moving along, because I know you're all excited to see what I've got for the day.  Short and sweet, here we go!   Oh and don't forget, linking up with Little Daisy May

What I'm Loving Wednesday: 

I'm Loving:   That Christmas is over. Sure, we all know it's a "fun" time. Those of  us who are fortunate to have families to spend time with. Those who get to visit with loved ones they don't see often enough.  Those are all the great moments of Christmas. I love the season, the lights and the trees and decorations.  There are also things I don't like, but that's not why we're here!  

I'm Loving: That so far it seems as though everyone had a lovely holiday.  

I'm Loving: Not only is next Tuesday the beginning to a New Year. It's also Pokey's 9th Birthday. I can't believe she's turning 9 years old in a week. Where has the time gone?  I'm excited to have a smallish birthday with just close friends and family.  Hopefully minus the headaches... I'm hopeful!  

Here's to hoping the New Year is better than 2012. 

I'm Loving : That our poor buddy Turdius Maximas didn't bite my hand off as we painted his toe nails yesterday.  Mr MB wasn't loving it!

I'm Loving: The adorable necklace Mr MB gave me for Christmas 

Lastly, I'm loving this guy....  Hell who couldn't love it!

Hang in there!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Happy Wednesday my dearest Dingleberries.  I was pleasantly surprised this morning to open my email and the wonderful message I found waiting for me there. From far away lands I've a Dingleberry who emails back and forth with me at times when she has the time.  Her words were so kind and her message so nice.  I enjoyed every moment of it.    So here we are again, making it through the hump and again, I'm linking up with Jamie over at Little Daisy May for this weeks, What I'm Loving Wednesday. So without further from me, let's get this show on the road!

I'm Loving .... We're like one week from Christmas, which means we are two weeks from the New Year, which is the birthday of my favorite little Pokey!  Come on 2013, we're done wit 2012 already!

I'm Loving .... This cute picture, I picked it up a few weeks from one of my favorite Zombie bloggers. How cute is it?

I'm Loving .... These funny ecards I found yesterday, I shouldn't but honestly I just couldn't resist! 

The last one is oh so true! 

I'm Loving .... My friends, family and that means YOU!  Yes, that's no typo. I mean you!  

I'm Loving .... Perhaps I'm a little closer to looking for a therapist!  

and lastly but never leastly, 

I'm Loving ....  This little guy

- Hang in there!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Music For A Tuesday

Another pick from Mama MB.  I doubt I ever mentioned it, but I wouldn't put it past myself.  I tend to talk a good bit about Mama MB, more so while she was still living..   Mama MB loved some Elvis. So much so she married on his birthday. She was so silly! 

Amazing grace, no matter who sings it always weighs heavy on my heart strings.  I don't know what it is, I guess because it's so common to hear it played at funerals.  I wasn't thrilled about it playing for Mama MB, but that didn't matter, because she loved  it. 

It's funny, it also reminds me of that old Steven King movie, Silver Bullet.  Weird I know, but at  one point during the movie. Someone's death I imagine, they play a version of that song.  Love that movie.

So there you have it, this weeks music. I hope you all enjoy Elvis. 

-Hang in there

Monday, December 17, 2012

What now...

One of the hardest things I'm facing right now is the lost feeling.  Everyday I grab my phone and I want to call her up.  She isn't there anymore though. What do  I do? Find someone new?  Start talking to the heavens when I'm driving?

Would people think me nuts?

I considered therapy, seriously considered it, last week.  The thought has faded a bit, still wondering if I should just give it a shot. 

I miss her, so much. 

Monday Mash-up: Episode 5

Good Monday dear Dingleberries ....  It's that day of the week again where we sit and look back at the last couple of days and attempt to figure out what the hell happened. I understood it all back when I drank and partied, but those days are long gone. Now it's a mystery where it all goes. Quite possibly a sick joke as well.

  • I'd love to be able to dedicate some time to blogger on the weekends, to stay caught up with my readings and postings. It just never seems to work out for me. Weekends are quite stressful and Monday seems to be the day I escape from it to get a break. That's bad isn't it? 
  • Next week is Christmas!  NEXT WEEK! We're all well aware of that aren't we?  No need to remind us of the soon to be brokemas!  I'm broke already what am I talking about. There has  to be an easier way to make it through the holidays.
  • We're missing 2 of the strongest links to our family unit this year. It's going to be a rough holiday, but I'm attempting to make the best of it...somehow.  That's what they would want, right? 
  • I want to move... again...already. That's bad too, I know. Mother wouldn't approve. But she isn't here now, she can't be mad at me. I want to move across the country, to escape everything here and be alone.. With those immediately close to me. Perhaps next year we could "rent" the place out to my sister and I can escape this world.  Though by then I'm sure I will have move past this idea. 
  • Still missing Mama MB.  

You can't read it that well, but it's our temporary thing until everything else is complete.  

  • It's a normal work week this week, but it can't get by fast enough. I'm looking forward to a couple extra days off next week!
  • No school starting Wednesday. I imagine she's so excited!
  • My heart aches for those lost at the shooting last week.  It's a sick and sad world we live in sometimes.  I can't fathom what that crazy person was going through and the fear those people must have felt. So very sad!  
  • Dr appointment on Wednesday,  another waste of gas I'm sure... But I do have a list of questions for them this time, so maybe not a complete waste. I hate that their nurses are dummies over there.  Ugh! 
So there we have this weeks mash up. I think I've covered enough for this week.  With hopes of posting more throughout the week.  How was your weekend?  

Hang in there!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Thursday's Monkey Butt

It was a very shittastic day and last night was nothing better either... I'm tired, will attempt to give more details tomorrow!

Hang in there

What I'm Loving Wednesday

So hello again my dearest and loveliest Dingleberries.  It's another cool day here in this oh so peachy state of Georgia.  There doesn't seem to be any sunshine though (again). Afraid the peaches may just die on us if we are careful and then what will Georgia have to offer?  I guess just us sweet Georgia girls.  ha ha.. So now that the lame is taken care of.  It's time to link up with Jamie over at Little Daisy May and oh my have you checked out her oh so adorable baby?  You must. Such a cutie!  

So with all honestly I'm actually at a loss for what I'm loving today, but I didn't want to fail you and well we're so slow at work today I figured it would kill sometime.  Right?  Sounds good yea?

I"m Loving: And I can't ever stress this one enough, I love you guys and gals. My true and faithful Dingleberries.  It's been a strange couple of weeks and you all hung in here with me.  It's not over yet, don't get your hopes up. But I'm trying.. I'm so thankful for every kind word and comment you leave me here. It really does make my day!

I'm Loving: That's it's the Christmas season around here and as I was hoping, the weather has cooled off some. I hate the cold weather, we're all well aware of  that little fact. I mean really how many monkeys do you see living in the cold?  Yea they have fur but aren't the mostly found in lovely hot countries and forests or something ? I think so... So I'm loving the season and the fact that I signed up for the oh so awesome and heart wrenching Airmail Christmas. How many of you signed up for that?  Well I did and my Christmas card has been mailed to who I can only assume is a sweet lady over in Illinois. Exciting to send a card to someone unknown, most exciting thing I've done all week!

I'm Loving:  THe good memories I have of my Mama MB.

and of course,

I'm Loving these guy, look how adorable!

Hang in there!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Music For A Tuesday

Happy whatsleftoftoday Tuesday ...

I actually thought about this post alll day today but oh my gawd we were so very busy at work.  Was a nice change from the super slow Monday I had. 

So it's late now and I need to get my sleep on, but this is one of the songs for played at Mama MB's funeral.  One of her picks..

It's  a good song, goes back to the Oh Brother Where Art Thou movie.   Good stuff! 

It's been 2 weeks (yesterday) since she passed away.  Still sad, wishing she was here now.  I keep reminding myself of all the wonderful memories I have of her, but I'm haunted with the memories of her passing...

-Hanging in there! 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Thursdays Monkey Butt

How are we today?  Hoping everyone is hanging in there.  So today I'd thoughts a good bit today what I would use for today's Monkey Butt. It's been a couple weeks or longer since I've even completed this task on my blog here. Epic Fail much?  Yea, kinda.

But I came across this lovely jewelry!

Flying Monkey Earrings
You know the ones, from The Wizard of OZ.  I love em (the earrings, not the monkeys from OZ). Some of you are thinking, hey she's covered the wizard of oz monkeys for Thursday before. What the fuck Monkey Butt?  Let me just say in my defense, that wasn't about jewelry ;)  That makes it OK right? For those who didn't catch that post, click HERE. It's good for a giggle. Good to see I'm still as shot out as I was back then.

I'd totally rawk either of these pieces of jewelry, those flying monkeys from The Wizard of Oz are still the scariest friggin monkeys ever!  ha ha.

There ya have it, Happy Thursday Dingleberries!

Hang in there!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Happy Wednesday Dingleberries, 
Here it is about 3:15 pm on this cloudy Wednesday here in the great big state of Georgia.  Don't get confused now, I don't want to say Georgia is either GREAT or BIG. It just fit nicely there in the sentence. Don't you agree? 
So it's been a week or so since I've done anything for What I'm Loving Wednesday. So today I felt the bug, I decided it was time. Time to get back to it, it may not be anything blogworthy, but it's an attempt. On my part, to remind myself that there are still plenty of other things for me to love.  

So welcome back Dingleberries and join me for a What I'm Loving Wednesday. 

Don't forget, I'm linking up with Jamie over at Little Daisy May, go check her out!   She and her hubs have just welcomed an adorable addition to their sweet family. So a shout out congrats to them from the land of MB.

I'm loving...  How lucky I am to be oh so lucky to have some of the best friends, family and blogofamily there is out there. Ya know we lost Mama MB. I wouldn't be here right now if it weren't for you all. Don't think you've seen the end of my depressing, please just shoot yourself in the face and get it over with posts, but I'm working on that demon because Mama MB would want me to keep my tail up! 

I'm Loving... The holiday season is near, things are going to weird this year, of course. But I'm hopeful for somewhat of a happy season. Fingers crossed.

I'm Loving... I made it to the recorders court yesterday and was able to file a continuance on the speeding  ticket I got last month. It isn't due today, instead they've moved it to Jan 2nd. Go figure, but it gets me through the holiday....

I'm Loving...  We've a Christmas party we're planning to attend this Saturday, it's been a minute since we got out anywhere, hoping it will be fun!

I'm Loving....  The beautiful sunrise I see each day that Mama MB would have loved

Almost done..

I'm Loving... These potential boy names ... Dorian Archer and Jordan Westley. Though I've been thinking today about Dorian Eastley or Easton and/or Dorian Asher. 
Girl name has already been chosen. Rebecca Kylene.

And of course

I'm Loving this guy, too cute

Hang in there! 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Music For A Tuesday: Johnny Cash

Ya know my love for Johnny Cash, needless to say when I discovered Mama MB had Johnny Cash's version of You are My Sunshine on her list of to be played. I was more than a little happy.  They played Johnny Cash- You Are My Sunshine as they rolled Mama MB's casket from the church that day. 

Monday, December 3, 2012

Monday Mashup : Episode 4

Happy Monday. 
I know, those words don't go well together, unless you're lucky enough to not have to work on Mondays. But then wouldn't Tuesday be your Monday? Or something like that. 
So it's another day in paradise around here today. Monday tends to start with a bang, which was me running late as hell this morning. Dearest Pokey isn't one for mornings.  Which makes things a bit hard. I feel so bad when we fight!  Guess that's normal parent stuff though isn't it. 

I keep flashing to all these good and bad memories I have of Mama MB. Which is coming a bit of way from last weeks posting. I'm attempting to calm things down a bit, for myself and my readers. I know it's not a pleasant environment to visit lately.  It's been a week today ya know?  Or tonight I should say. She passed at 6:50 pm last Monday. Hard to believe. I've been by her resting place everyday since then. The flowers are still so lovely.  Dying off a bit, but we will have something more permanent for flowers soon enough.  

I miss her so much. 

In regards to Mama MB and my trials I'm thankful for every single comment you dear Dingleberries leave for me. I know, deep down, I wouldn't make it through these times right now if it weren't for the friends and family that I have, but also each and every single one of you!  I know it's a rough time and I know these things are hard, but you all keep me going!  So again, Thank you!

In regards to the baby MB. Well I'm pretty fed up with toying with baby names. We aren't sure if we're having a boy or girl yet and I think my gut on the boy name.  I'm not feeling the grand parents names we were talking about. They're just so.... not me.  Don't mean to offend anyone, but I can't see myself calling my kid Joe or Jo-Jo or Joseph. I just don't like it. Plus it's the middle name of a boy I dated in HS and things didn't go so well with him.  It's bugging me! 

I'm reading a bit more lately, picked up one of my Kindle books, "The Missing Link"  not too shabby at all if you ask me. Don't get me started on the things I've yet to finish before picking this one up though!  keeping up with reading here keeps my busy enough during the day.  I've simply giving up on bringing reading material into the office!   

So we're mashing it on up over here aren't we?  I'm trying to wrap it up, wanted to say one more thing.. But Spoiler Alert Beware: Walking Dead
I was actually able to watch last nights mid-season finale on AMC. Wow that show keeps me on the edge of my seat. I will say I'm going to be pissed if they kill off Darrell.  Just saying, he's a total hawtie!  I'm thinking they won't though because I think the end showed him and Merle going back to the prison. Or something like that.
I can't wait until February!  To say the least.
Anyone else watch it last night?  

Also am working on picking up Christmas cards for this year.  So go ahead and send over your mailing address if you're interested.  I've already got a few of yours, so looking forward to it. 

With all of that I'm going to leave you. I think I've done enough for one day. Tomorrow am planning on getting back to our regularly scheduled poo flinging. Can't wait can ya?

Hang in there!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Thought provoking

Warning... This post is of a religious nature, for those who don't approve, please come back tomorrow for something else!

 Some of you know I've been.... struggling... with religion this past year or so. Mama MB called upon God in her time of need, when she found out how sick she was.  She then found a church and reached out for guidance and support. With time I took to going with her and Papa MB. Figured it would be nice to spend a day doing something they enjoyed. I found it rewarding...

Mama MB got worse in worse in recent months leading up to her death. I rebelled and became very angry with God.  I quit going, not only because they weren't going anymore, but because I couldn't find it in myself to understand why this God was taking my Mama MB from me.  I was very angry.

Pastor said today, that God comes back and takes the dead from this place.  This earth. Does this mean they (the dead) are stuck here also until God comes back to take them from this place?

I want to believe, I'm trying so. I do believe... I think...  I keep telling myself she's in a better place.  I keep telling myself this.  Her pain and suffering is over, this much is true. That much I am glad for.  I'm glad she isn't suffering from her cancer anymore.  For that I am glad, but I'm just a bit confused as to why he said the dead will leave this place when God comes back. 

What does this mean?

Saturday, December 1, 2012

She's not there

I keep hoping things will get easier, that the hole in my chest will magically heal itself. That Mama MB will be sitting on the couch with her coffee each time I walk through those doors.

Pokey and I brought Papa MB out today for the Christmas parade.  We also went to visit with Mama MB and stopped in by the Kroger.  Not a bad day I'd say, but there is still that empty feeling where ever I go.

- hanging in there