Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Happy Halloweenie!

Happy Halloweenie!
It's been a good year for it this year.  The only exception being the cold. It's too cold.  By the time we made it back to the car, my fingers were frozen. If I had banged them on anything I'm sure they would have broken right off! 
Exaggeration, I know!  Whatever though.. Moving on..
We're home, warm and cleaned up.  Zombieland is on right now and he's beating the shit out of the clown with the big hammer thing.  It's awesome!!  My favorite part of the movie, because that clown is freaky as hell!
So we had a blast tonight, did I mention that?   I know  a few of you were expecting photos, so I snapped  few! 

Pokey looked awesome!

Then she turned on me!


This just in, beware of two female zombies waging war in the neighborhood! 
*not bad for our first time right? 

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Happy Wednesday my dearest Dingleberries.  How are we this lovely day?  It's been a week already and I'm just barely climbing the hill to get over this hump.    So this week, like all others. I'm linking up with Jamie at This Kind of Love. So go check her out, come on, ya know you want to!

This weeks is pretty cut and dry, simple if you will.

I'm Loving .... HALLOWEEN

Lovely isn't it?  Halloween is one of my favorite holidays and yes it has everything to do with the candy and the costumes.  I hate the cold and  it's going to be quite chilly this year. Regardless it's going to be awesome.
Not only has Pokey never dressed as something "scary" for Halloween. She's rawking the style this year and going to play zombie with me.
I'm one proud Mama MB! 

Happy Halloween my dearest Dingleberries!

Hang in there!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Music For A Tuesday

Happy Tuesday Dingleberries.  I'm blogging at work. With work on Saturday, dinner with friends and then Sunday's dinner with the 'in-laws' and then their visit to the new house.  It's been a few days for me. I'm feeling bummed about this, among other things.  We had a nice weekend though.  I loved being able to spend some time with E. I haven't seen her in months.  She's always been a special lady in my life. She's a good bit younger than me, so she was always like a baby sister to me!  Plus some great news, she is also expecting her 2nd bundle  of joy. Due like the same day I'm due. How sweet is that?

So this may be a half way updater post.. I've so many things to post.  Though I feel slightly bad that I'd be doing that with my Tuesday post. Oh wait! I can call it random Tuesday as well.  That's a thing.. Isn't it?  Plus you can sit and listen to the music as you're reading.  It works!!  :)

Mama MB had a bad night last night. She's really getting bad a lot of time lately. (Un)Luckily she is on her pain meds and can't understand  or see my tears as I listen to the cruel things she says. The nasty way she talks to those she loves. The moans and cries that escape her lips. As she calls out one of her sister or  brothers for help. It's killing me to watch this. There has to be something that can be done. Something that can help, something to find her some  peace while she goes through this rough patch!  We're considering a nurse or possibly some hospice. But honestly a facility would really benefit Mama MB at this point.   So that is what I'm struggling with at this point. I was bad last night and went off on one of my rants and uproars about how unfair life and sickness is. I didn't share it with blogger though.  Did I mention I've started a more private blog so that certain members of my family can't peer into my moments of insanity!  If you're interested  let me know!  We're at a point right now, with Mama MB.  We don't feel as though we can care for her the best she needs right now.  Ya know what I mean? Like there is something better for her. We're trying, so hard. We love her so much, but she's fighting tooth and nail right now.  Everyone is trying to kill her with medicine.  But it's everything they've prescribed to her. Ugh!
They ran pink newspapers this weekend.  Cute right?

I'm sorry!!

I snapped a photo yesterday: Doesn't compare It's so cold here right now. Hurricane Sandy is really throwing a fit isn't it. My thoughts and well wishings for those in the Northern States who are getting hit really hard right now. I really hope they get them comfortable as well.  It's a crazy time right now. I hope this isn't a sign that the winter is going to be terrible, again.  I don't want another terrible winter. But those bug haters out there will sure appreciate it!  

Almost done! Don't give up yet ;) 

Tomorrow  is Halloween. We're (Pokey and I) are planning to dress as zombies.  Child zombies are the scariest shit ever. Am I right or what? But Pokey completed her masterpiece of a pumpkin Sunday morning. I think she did a fabulous job and we love it!
Happy Halloween 2012

And lastly, see I told you I was close to being done with today's post.  You guys are happy I'm all caught up now (with the exception of 2012 postings) ...

Saturday, while out to hit the PO box and go vote I was super excited to get to the PO box. I had a note telling me I'd something too large to fit into my box. Exciting right!?!?!  Remember my constant nagging about needing art for the MB cave?

Check it out. ..

Isn't it beautiful? It came all the way from Mynx in Australia. I love it!  It's my 2nd  piece from her.  She does some really awesome work. Go check her out. Much love dear Mynx, thank you for honoring me with an awesome piece of art for the MB walls!

For those of you who haven't sent me anything, what the frak yo?  Leave me a message here with your email addy, we can set up an email so I can get you my mailing address or here ya go, email me . whatsonyourmindmonkeybutt(at)gmail(dot)com

There ya have it my dear Dingleberries. If you've made it this far. You deserve a medal or something. You rawk!

- Hang in there!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Thursday's Monkey Butt

Well Happy Thursday dear Dingleberries.  I hate that  I didn't get this posted earlier today.  Work always manages to get in the way of my blogging life!  ha ha.

So this shall be somewhat of an update kind of post.  Another post of my random babbles. It's 11pm here and I'm waiting on a cake to cool so that I can frost it in preparation for tomorrows Fall Festival celebration at Pokey's school.
Can you believe it, me being all cool and helpful Mom. With a schedule like mine.  It's not obvious or anything that I didn't have time for that shit.
It's my own fault.
I came home, in a mad rush, washed my car and sorted the dishes.  Rushed to Mama MB's house to visit and clean if need be. It seemed pretty clean so I just sat down and hung out.
Mama MB was up on her feet, trying to get some food in the oven for her and Papa MB.  I helped as I could and she really brightened up with Mr MB came over to visit as well.
Granny MB said she ate a bowl of cereal today, had been up all day also. I hope she ate some dinner.
I hope things are turning around ... again!
She's got a Dr appointment tomorrow, wonder what they will say this time.
I do want to say, thank you. All of you. For your kind words, your awesome comments your good vibes and your prayers! I hate to say I'm sorry for my moments of weakness, but I wouldn't be human if I didn't have those.
We all get skeered from time to time... Right?
This doesn't mean we're out of the weeds or anything, just means that she's better today than she has been in days past. She got some food in her!
I will take what I can get at this time!
Stopped by the PO box today on the way home and I'm super excited to find a card in the box telling me there is something I need to collect from the postal workers.  Something that won't fit in my tiny box.
Can't wait until Saturday, to collect whatever it is.
I'm trying to make time to vote on Saturday as well as hit the PO Box. I've gotta work and we're doing dinner with one of my girlfriends and her daughter!
Well that's all I'm giving you tonight dearest Dingleberries.  I hope you all had a fabulous day!
Hang  in there!

Shake it out

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


She's in and out of bed.... Doesn't seem to want to get up and down. She doesn't seem to have the strength. Or the desire?   She doesn't eat ... much. Or drink much.  Possibly dehydrated.  They should start radiation next week.  What's the point if she's going to let herself die from starvation or dehydration?  I shouldn't be so cruel and mean with my wordss.  But I love her so much. It breaks my heart. I die inside and I can't help but be scared to death that she is going to die.    She's in constant pain and she's on all of these pain medicines. Which seem to make her all groggy and sleepy. Thinking that she's taking too much of her medicine.  Things aren't very great right now.  I feel like all I can do is sit back and watch it all go down.  I wish they could make it all go away. I with they could make it all better. That she wasn't so sick. That she wasn't in so much pain.  I miss the days when she felt better.
We knew it would come to this one day didn't we?  That cancer treatments would be bad at some point and that she's gotten so lucky so far.
But the cancer treatments aren't working..
They're radiating the adrenal glands as well as a spot of her back.
From what I'm told it's spread to the liver as well.
The cancer in her lungs has spread and her others have grown in size.
It's not looking good.
But am I suppose to know this? 
Mama MB doesn't talk to me about it, I understand. I don't say anything to her because I can't imagine how she feels going through all of this. What she thinks about. When she's not drugged with pain medicine.
Life isn't fair. Life fucking sucks for my Mama MB and it's NOT FAIR!
I'm sorry for the terrible words today. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, I just want to get it out.  Thanks my Dingleberries... 

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Happy Wednesday my dear Dingleberries.
Today is going as  smoothly as any other, though we are quite busy at work today. Never a dull moment. 
So we're back for What I'm Loving Wednesday. I'm linked up with Jamie over at This Kind of Love and recommend you go check her out!  

Always a blast!!

So lets get this done, shall we?

What I'm Loving

I'm Loving ....  I'm finally getting around to getting my hair cut this week!

Most of you know my weakness for Alice in Twilight. I love her character, mostly her hair.   This was my last cut and I've every intention of going back to this.  I'm looking like a sheep dog at this point.  I'm NOT loving that!

I'm Loving .. It's October, so I'm loving all the pumpkins I'm finding...  :)  Halloween is right around the corner!

Loving it!

I'm Loving ... This funny picture I found earlier!

I'm Loving ... That Twilight Breaking Dawn pt 2 will be here next month!

OMIGawsh I hope it's as good as I'm hoping it will be.  I'm sad to see it come to an end, but excited to see it on the big screen!  My girl friend and I are meeting in the middle in some place called Greenville, SC to see the movie. It's going to be Epic! 

I'm Loving .. that I signed up for volunteer work at the school fall festival this Friday. I get to work the putt putt game and also bring in a cake for the cake walk. Exciting. This will be a first for me, but I think it's going to be a lot of fun!

Lastly, I'm Loving  this (much needed?) monkey!

What do you think?  Should Monkey's have police?  Maybe it would cut down on the flung poo?  Doubtful

Hang in there!        

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Music For A Tuesday

Well Happy Tuesday Dingleberries!  Or like I said on FB, what's left of it anyway. Though from the sight of things, a few of you have already started on your Wednesday. It's weird being a day behind sometimes! 

So I didn't forget about today's post. I just didn't know what I wanted to share this week, so I've come up with one.  I saw a friend post it today on FB as well and ya know, it's almost Halloween.  No better time than to go ahead and share it now.  Halloween is next week isn't it?  I think it is!  We're not going sexy this year, we're going zombie!  It's going to be great! 

Excited for Halloween!!   Anyone not seen "The Nightmare Before Christmas" ? Get off your arses and get out to the video store or the netflix and be sure to check this one out. Tim Burton is a genious if you ask me, I just love him! 

Thanks everyone for the kind words regarding Mama MB in my last post. I'm sorry I'm so slack that I rarely have/make the time to blog. It's sad, but life and work is busy and well I hate to drag my blog down with depression and the real of life.  Just not my style.

I will say..  I think the "somebigword" gland is the adrenal gland.  Not that big of a word after all!  ;)  She seemed to hurt tonight and didn't eat much of anything Papa MB  tells me! 

So that's what you get for tonight. I hope everyone had a fabulous day and an awesome tomorrow!!!  :)

Hang in there!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Our weakly 365, 2012

Happy Sunday Dingleberries..

I'm a bunch of mixed feelings, heart aches and upsets stomachs. I'd love to blame hormones but I'm sure it's just the way I am.   The weekend was pretty good.  Spent most of Saturday at Mama MB's. Just hanging with her, letting the girls play.  Papa and Mr. MB stayed outside working on one of Papa's project trucks.  I stayed inside, cleaning and hanging/talking with Mama MB. She got out of bed around lunch or so and felt.....better.    The pain meds are helping, though I did hear her say today that she was still hurting.

I'm just glad she's out of bed.... eating and drinking. 

Monday, October 15th
It's been a week.  Something about the car ride up and down the highway. It really sucks!    Thought at the end of last week it was going to be a helluva week this week, what with Dr appointments and thought Granny MB said she would be going out of town with my aunt.  Which leaves me or my other aunt to take Mama MB to the Dr.  Granny MB told me the other day she isn't going. Let's see how that pans out.

I've a Dr appointment tomorrow, the first appointment with the OB.  I'm curious as to if they will do an ultrasound or not.  Shall see!

Tuesday, October 16th
We got news from Mama MB's Dr.   ...

They're going to do some radiation on the "somebigword" gland and on her back.  Those two are apparently close enough to where they can take care of them both at the same time.

Hopes are to shrink that down, it's swollen .. the gland and then maybe that will relieve some of her pains.

We're hoping. 

My aunt is also working on getting a second opinion lined up with the cancer center in Atlanta.  This is all pretty much hearsay at this point for me, because I haven't spoken to my aunt yet.  Just Granny MB over the phone.  Will keep ya posted!  I'm not asking questions with Mama MB because I don't want to push the issue of making her talk about it.  Is this wrong?

Wednesday, October 17th
So I forgot to take a photo of myself today. The week went to hell for me this week and there were a few days toward the end that I just didn't get the picture taken.

This is a lovely sunrise though.  I think perhaps this was me getting off the interstate heading to work. 

Thursday, October 18th
Another early morning.. It's getting cold around here these days.  I'm not loving it.  I guess it's getting cold everywhere in the US though I guess.  Some of you over seas are so lucky to be coming in spring and summer right?! 

Friday, October 19th

I thought for a second this was another sunrise, but I looked again and it's of the lake and the .. steam? ... coming off the lake.  That's a local fishing pond in the city! 

We haven't been yet, fishing isn't my favorite thing to do. I wonder why Papa MB hasn't gone here yet. Then again a lot of the fishing lakes have like no throw back policies and pay by the pound stuff.  We don't really eat fish. Guess that's a possible reason!

Saturday, October 20th
Forgot to take a photo... again.  But luckily Pokey was trying on this cute little hat thing at Grandma's. She doesn't look thrilled about being forced to pose for Grandma photos.  I will say, I miss them too. We haven't been down in so long, since the move. Due to negligence. They're always busy and so are we. Just when we think things will work out and we can go, something goes wrong. Never fails!  Luckily this week she did her exam's and had no work so we were able to go out for dinner!  It was a blast. 

It only got hard when having to talk to her about Mama MB's condition. She loves us all and Mama MB as well, so it seemed fair that she hear everything as well.  She was sympathetic and understood what and where I was coming from. For that I am glad.  Just hope it's not another couple months before I see them again!

Sunday, October 21st
Busy day today.. Busy in front of the washer machine, dryer and cleaning all the rooms.  It was much needed!  It's pretty crazy how this place seems to always be a mess.  Arg! 

Did a little home improvement today in the soon to be baby  MB room. (still need a MB kinda name)

Took this photo as I took a stroll over to visit with Mama and Papa MB.  Just to check in, hadn't been there all day.

Mama MB didn't seem to be in  a great mood today.  Grumpy from whatever reason. I didn't ask. Just held my tongue and played the patience card.  I'm good at that ya know!  It's hard , sometimes.

One more before I go, check out the picture I snapped on the stroll over to Mama MB's today!

It's our little pathway through the woods.  It's incomplete, but we were able to get these big wood things pulled out there! Mr MB blew all the leaves from the path. I miss the leaves a little, but it looks nice!

There ya have it Dingleberries.  My week of 2012.  Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did and I'm hoping to do better next week. I can't hang out in depression land. I gotta pull through this, because... it could always be worse!!

Hang in there!

Friday, October 19, 2012

Friday's Fabulous Photo



Losing grip

** Note to reader, before you begin. This is somewhat of a religious  post. If you've no interest, please come back later for something no so real! **

I recently found myself aching to attend the church with Mama and Papa MB.  It didn't all start with me wanting to find religion. With me seeking answers to this life we live or what God may or may not have planned for me and my life.

It started with the simple desire to participate in something my parents enjoyed doing. Something that brought them some sort of happy.

I felt a pull and decided that when we moved, I would attempt to get a little more involved in the church thing. Try to attend times other than morning service only.  I've taken Pokey to the AWANA in the evenings and I've sat through the 6pm service a few times.

It's not so bad....

To the point of the  post...  I feel as though I'm losing what if any faith I've found so far.  With Mama MB's sickness only getting worse and worse. My little bit of faith is turning into anger. This is normal, I know. I've heard of it many times. Someone loses something or someone they love and they blame God for taking them away. For not making them feel better.

But it's happening to me...  I've just started the road to seeking out what they say  is God here comes the wrench in my chain.  Or maybe like the preacher man says.... It's the devil trying to get me!

What do you do?

Hang  in there!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Thursday's Monkey Butt: Bea

Happy Thursday Dingleberries,
You didn't think I forgot about you today did you?  I know you wouldn't think something like that,
So some weeks ago I asked everyone for anything and everything they could come up with artsy for my new office.
Mind you it's still a work in progress!
I've actually received a couple of pieces so far. So I'm making this a two-fer, because honestly I can't quite remember what I've shared.  So there is nothing better for this weeks Thursday's MB than to share a gift (or two) for the MB!
Check em out!  Love em.. Cause I certainly do. I want to thank my two Dingleberries who took their time to send me something awesome!!
My first!  Gifted actually from Sissy MB.  That's right, I have an artist in the family.  I'm still planning to ask her to add some color.
Have I shared this one?
Most recently, all the way from far far away

I'm so happy these two have taken the time to throw something together for me to make my office a bit brighter!  If only I could get that place (the office) together!
It's  a damn mess I tell ya!

So my dear Dingleberries. You all know I want/need/love art for my walls. Do not hesitate to send me something, anything.  It doesn't even have to be good. Wait until you see what I draw for my walls!
That's going to be a funny post!
So email me and let me know if you'd love to send me something to.

Hang in there!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

What I'm Loving Wednesday

Happy Wednesday Dingleberries.  Here we are again, already at the hump! I'm hoping I can make  it over smoothly. With whats left of it anyways. Saved my own arse this morning as the panic set in that I hadn't ran our auction ad in the newspaper yesterday. Talk about my nightmare.  Not getting my job done properly and throwing off the auction. Managed to save it though.  Thank Goodness.

So here we are again, linking up with This Kind Of Love for What I'm Loving Wednesday... So go check it out and what are you loving?

I'm Loving these super awesome fabulous shoes. OMIGAWSH someone buy them for me! 

It's Zombie season, I'm still mad at Dish and AMC but it is what it is!  

I'm Loving these awesome looking treats!

I'm Loving this time of year, despite the cold.

I'm Loving this car.

Seems as though I've talked myself into buying  a new to me car next year. I want one like this one!

I'm loving: Zombieland and watching this clown get his arse kicked.. Or face smacked down!

Wrapping it up..

I'm Loving my dear Dingleberries, my friends and my family.  You're always #1

I'm Loving this adorable monkey!

Hang in there!

How can I make her fight again?

I've had a lot going on lately. A lot on my mind. Especially with Mama MB's cancer. It's really hit a hard stop in the road... That's not to say her cancer as stopped. They should know something tomorrow.  She had CT scans ran last week.  Granny MB did tell me that her Dr thought last time they ran scans that it looked as though it had grown...Some more.

Every day I call her, every day she's on bed. Nothing seems to drive her to want to get out of bed anymore.  Not unless she absolutely HAS to. She's in constant pain.... They've got her on the oxycodone,  but it doesn't seem to last long enough. At this point, Mama MB seems to be living off pain medicine.  They've offered her another type of pain medicine which comes through a patch!!  She isn't too thrilled to get on that one.  Not entirely sure why she's hesitant on taking it.  I think she was mainly concerned that because they had to scan her body and check to be sure that she was able to take the medicine.  Her surgeon advised her that she would take it if it were available and I'm sure her Dr has said the same.  We will see what she decides.

Prayers needed, tomorrow is result day. As I've said. I pray things have improved... Or perhaps just halted a bit. I will be glad when they get her off this chemo she is on right now, as all the pain seems to have started since she began this treatment.

It pains me to call her lately, I love to go visit. But I'd rather see her out of bed and moving around. EATING would be nice! She doesn't do that anymore either.

I hope things pick up again... I hate her feeling crappy!

We're still hanging in there, I hope everyone else is doing well!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Music For A Tuesday

At a loss for ideas and this came to mind today. I stumble upon this one a while back over at The Ginger Blog Man and just fell in love with it instantly.  I've now added Grimes to my Pandora player so I can randomly hear them throughout the day. I love it!

So while you're listening to that, I'm going to cram in a Random Tuesday while I'm at it!  :) Excited aren't you?

Torn as to if I want to start with the happy or not so much...  I hate to even bring in the not so happy stuff.  so maybe I wont!

But I will show you a couple of other photos I have for the day!

Saw this on my walk home from Mama MB's this afternoon. I guess in all the days past I've been so busy that I haven't "stopped to smell the flowers" so to speak. It's  water lily I think is what it's called.  I though it was lovely and it made me think of you my dear Dingleberries!

It's been another hellish days today.  One of my co-workers called me last night and said he was no longer employed with the company. I couldn't/can't believe it.  It's insanity.  The fact that the company let him go, for the BS reasons listed and stated. Just blows my mind. I know we're  a right to hire, right to fire state. But what.the.fuck.  He was such a good employee and yes he'd been in a slump as of lately and had developed a nice attitude and a certain " i hate my job" feel but we all do that. 

To fire someone, who has put their blood, sweat, tears and time into the company. Bent over backwards and lost so much time and sleep in their normal lives.  To just fire them like that?  I've lost all respect for those people  I call my bosses. It breaks my heart really!

Pokey had her first parent/teacher conference today.  Unfortunately on my way there I manage to catch a nice speeding ticket!  I was really kinda pissed off about that. I haven't gotten a ticket in like 5 years or something. It's total BS that she caught me speeding. Not that it's any excuse and I shouldn't be bitching.. But in my defence.. I thought I was out of the school zone, I was following with the other vehicles in front of me. What do they call it?  Staying with the flow of traffic and well I just don't think I should have to suffer this blow.  It's bullshit I tell you! 

They put a court date on the ticket.. You bet your sweet ass I'm going to be sitting in that court room on December 5th.  I hear if you go to court it will most likely be reduced and if the cop doesn't show it can just get thrown out!  ::fingers crossed::

With all of that up there, I guess  I did share the not so good, but it all started out like this!!

Up early (the norm) and left early for work this morning.  Being late on Monday and then leaving early on Tuesday. Has a certain way of affecting how much money I have at the end of the week. Which is usually none.

Tina (my car) is being a POS this week. No idea why. Something...electrical?  I have no idea.  All I know is I reallllly need a new to me car.  Not something typical for me to say but I think it's true!

I had no idea the Mazda 5 was a minivan?  Has it always been that way?  I'm in love with the Mazda 3.  In love with it!  So there you have an early morning sunrise in Georgia!

I hope everyone had a FABULOUS Tuesday, all in all. Mine was OK. Something about those short days at work. Really makes the day better! 

Hang in there!