Wednesday, October 17, 2012

How can I make her fight again?

I've had a lot going on lately. A lot on my mind. Especially with Mama MB's cancer. It's really hit a hard stop in the road... That's not to say her cancer as stopped. They should know something tomorrow.  She had CT scans ran last week.  Granny MB did tell me that her Dr thought last time they ran scans that it looked as though it had grown...Some more.

Every day I call her, every day she's on bed. Nothing seems to drive her to want to get out of bed anymore.  Not unless she absolutely HAS to. She's in constant pain.... They've got her on the oxycodone,  but it doesn't seem to last long enough. At this point, Mama MB seems to be living off pain medicine.  They've offered her another type of pain medicine which comes through a patch!!  She isn't too thrilled to get on that one.  Not entirely sure why she's hesitant on taking it.  I think she was mainly concerned that because they had to scan her body and check to be sure that she was able to take the medicine.  Her surgeon advised her that she would take it if it were available and I'm sure her Dr has said the same.  We will see what she decides.

Prayers needed, tomorrow is result day. As I've said. I pray things have improved... Or perhaps just halted a bit. I will be glad when they get her off this chemo she is on right now, as all the pain seems to have started since she began this treatment.

It pains me to call her lately, I love to go visit. But I'd rather see her out of bed and moving around. EATING would be nice! She doesn't do that anymore either.

I hope things pick up again... I hate her feeling crappy!

We're still hanging in there, I hope everyone else is doing well!!


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  1. Sorry to hear that Mama seems to have lost her fight. Will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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    1. Thanks J.Day. I went to visit with her for a while tonight and she perked up a little, still down though!

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  2. So sorry to hear, your mother is so brave and so are you. I really am routing for you both. I am sending as much love and positivity her way and hoping for the best for you both.

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  3. So sorry your mom is struggling so much. It is so hard to stand by and watch someone you love suffer. I had to do it with both my parents and it was awful.

    I pray that you will have good news tomorrow. I hope that she can get a break from the pain and exhaustion.
    And I pray for peace for you!

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    1. Thank you Kianwi! I hope they can find a peace for Mama MB and get this pain under control. I think things could be semi like they were if they could get that down!

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  4. Chemo is hard on people, no appetite makes it hard to function with no energy, then you add depression to that and it's extra hard. My prayers continue.....

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    1. Thanks Tim! The chemo and pain meds and lack of food and energy. She's just in a rough spot right now.

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  5. I feel for you sweet thang. My Aunt Katie who just turned 104 is not doing well. she also does not eat and now only gets clear liquids. I know you cannot survive without nurishment and getting only water can last only so long. She is hanging in there and who knows how long it will be. I am praying for her and mama MB.

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    1. My thoughts and prayers for her as well. We don't want Mama MB to get to the liquids and IV's. She needs to work through this. I hope it's soon. I hope your aunt starts eating! My thoughts with you, Hang in there! :)

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  6. Keep us posted! Thinking of you both!

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  7. Sending you hugs and positive energy.
    Stay strong lovely lady.

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