Friday, February 5, 2016

parenting fail #46745132





This made me laugh ... but has nothing to do with this post.  Well aside from it being kid related.

Had [another] an argument with my 12YO this morning (Pokey).  I guess all these prego hormones and her pre-teen hormones are really taking a toll on the both of us.
She cried in her room last night, because "all we do is fight".  
YES I FELT HORRIBLE FOR THIS
So this morning, as usual we're running late and girl has absolutely NO SENSE OF URGENCY.
So I'm trying not to yell and be a crazy mother, without much success.
Long story short, we missed the  bus and on the way to school we're fussing about something and she wacks my arm. I was like WTH?!?!
lol
She knew she'd messed up then, I grounded her and she fussed some more.

So in the end, she said kind of under her breath that she "hates parents".  So what does MB do, yes without thinking.. I begin to get upset, cant help but think about Mama MB and how many times I probably said something stupid like that to her and now... she's gone now.
So me, being an uncontrollable psycho ... I said...  
"Well, one day you'll wake up and you won't have parents... and by then you may be a parent.. or not.. then you have no worries."


INSTANT REGRET!!

Not only am I suffering inside that I miss my Mama MB, but my own daughter "hates parents" 

Keep in mind, I know it's not true and she was just being a kid..

Lord I wish I'd not said those words this morning.

Needless to say, I cried half way to work, lol ..

Parenting man, it's hard sometimes.

-Hanging in there.

Monday, February 1, 2016

Prego with Twins






This is the worst pregnancy I've had so far.  

These boys are kicking my butt.

Hormones man, hormones. 

-Hanging in there

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Feels like Monday, stupid camel



It's been a while (again). For that I am deeply sorry.
I'm still here, still hanging around.. Still being a Monkey Butt sorts. 

This morning was one of those days, I could have just gone back to bed. 
Nothing bad, just felt like it would be good to go back to sleep.  Unable to do that I got up and I'm at work. 
It's suppose to rain today, again.
I'm not complaining, my windshield is so incredibly nasty. Remind me to put some windshield washer fluid in later.

Hang in there Dingleberries.
 
 

Friday, December 4, 2015

memories



So you all know it's been a week or so since the good news and while I'm still working on processing it all and trying to be overwhelmed with the fear and risk of this new news.  All in all it's good. Thanks everyone for the well wishes!

So I don't know if I've told you this story before or not, but when we were little there were times when my single mother would live with our grandparents and we would also.  This was always OK because we loved our grandparents and still do of course.

So there was this movie, I'm guessing it was recently released at the time, because Mom brought it home or had it available, on VHS of course! Some of you will remember those and of course the movie, it was Dirty Dancing.

You know the one, with the oh so attractive Patrick Swayze and the little girl (Jennifer Grey) who comes to town on vacation with her family.  Adorable move and to this day I still love it.
So my grandparents being... grandparents I guess would probably have flipped a lid or something had they known we were watching this, of course MOm being so young everyone thought they knew better as to how to raise us chirrens and what we should and shouldn't be seeing. I think though, if Mom thought it was OK.... That's good enough for me. So she kept us up and let us watch this movie with her. 

It's one of those moments, I hope I never forget about Mama MB. It's been a few years already since her death and I swear there for the longest time all I could picture and remember were those last horrible moments...It clouded so much of my vision and still breaks my heart, but there are glimpses and little snippets of joy that I'm recalling lately. 

She's be overjoyed with the news of twins, I'm already hearing family members tell me that she had said before that me or my sister having twins would have been cool.

Feeling blessed and knowing she's watching from above.

Hang in there Dingleberries!!




Wednesday, December 2, 2015

So..... then there's this

Hey ya'll.

So you remember that whole news thing about having another little monkey butt joy..


Yea... 








Soak that in, cause I'm still trying! 

-Hang in there, Dingleberries!

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Humph,



Well, I want to post something...

But nothing is coming to mind..

So I leave you with this. 



Yep a picture of my big head :D 

Have a great day Dingleberries.

It's posta start raining again tomorrow, bummer!

Friday, November 13, 2015

Friday, the 13th.



Well, we're all probably pretty well aware that today is the dreaded Friday the 13th. The thing that most comes to mind is:
 1) those creepy movies usually placed in a camping type situation with multiple peoples in one place and a creepy guy with a hockey mask.  and 
2) chainsaws (don't ask, I don't know)

Anyways, so the 13th has reared its nasty head this morning. I know  it's probabyly just something that's made up and  all the crap that happens on days like today has zero to do with the date itself but more that it was just suppose to happen that day and we need something to blame.  (sounds good anyway)
This morning, while running late (again) the radio tells me they've blocked the interstate I travel into work, due to an overturned truck and something leaking ... the normal mess in Gwinnett (they're really terrible drivers here).  So I'm doomed  to get stuck in this traffic of course. I'm weighing all the different route I could attempt to take and try to calculate in my head how long they'll take me and how late it will make me. I choose to drive right through (that would have been a mess if I ever saw one). 
So I sucked it up and sat through it, it was terrible and awful and I was an hour late for work.  Oversleeping did not help this matter though, so I can't blame only the terrible drivers in this county.
 
So yea, to go along with that mess people just seem all around crabby today. Random problems keep popping up and generally people are just bugging the poo out of me.  haha.
I shouldn't rant but sometimes I just can't help it.
 
Hopefully you are all having a better day than me on this Friday, the 13th.
 
-Hang  in there and remember *when in the woods tonight, don't run towards the chainsaw noises. Run the other way and please don't go camping!