Thursday, March 31, 2011

Day 86, 365 Days of 2011

Thursday, March 31st, 2011

Here I am, sitting in my chair at work, bored out of my damn mind. It's just not fair. Why is it I'm cursed with these slow boring days?  Why can't I just get paid to go home and do nothing?  To freely play online, with facebook and blogger without the fear of getting caught.  ugh it's just crap!
Maybe it will get better soon. It has to. I can't stand to sit here bored anymore.

So I've a million and 2 things going on in my life right now. I've unfortunately had to stick my being a police officer on the back burner. I've hopes and dreams of accomplishing said achievement but it just isn't obtainable RIGHT NOW.  Sad but true. The lease is running out on the apartment I'm in right now, so it's packing and painting.. As my readers may have noticed, my facebook clicker thing on my blog holds the picture of me covering the lovely pink on my daughters walls. My fellow readers if you want to hit me up on facebook, please do not hesitate, it's where you will find me most often.  ha ha.. As of right now I'm actually weeding through a break up situation.  Yes it's sad but true. I've devastated an sweet loving person for selfish reasons. Don't ask me why, because all I can say is, it's just ME. I feel awful and he may never understand that.  But of all my apologies I've given him they are all true.  Our apartment in a mess and I've a million things to sort through and separate and the packing. Oh gah the packing. The weather sucks. I've packed all of 3 boxes, 2 of which are in my daughters closet and full of stuff she didn't even know she had. These will end up in STORAGE.  I've also inherited the Kia that we purchased as a couple, it's in my name, and now I must dig myself out from under that beast!  I've blogged about my wonderful Toyota Camry, which is still nameless, and have no real desire to drive an SUV.  I'm moving home to my mothers house with high hopes that someone will offer me enough money to buy this SUV and I can move out on my own, again. I've never been single. It's weird. I'm 29 years old and never once had a just me relationship.  Is that so weird?  I honestly think it's going to be life changing and a well deserved learning experience.  I struggle with the idea in my moments of weakness, I still care for what will soon be an EX but I think it's time for ME!  Does this make me cruel?  Selfish? Wrong?  Am I wrong?  I just don't know.

1 comment:

  1. It's nothing wrong with braking up with someone if you think that's the best thing for you... It's probably hard for both of you but I don't think you're cruel, selfish or anything else. You're just doing what you think it's the right thing to do. And there's nothing wrong with that!


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