As of lately, what with all of the life stuff happening around me. I'm noticing what the people around me, friends mainly mean to me and how I think I feel to them.
As of lately, no one talks to me anymore. They're never around or anything like that. I think I'm just misunderstanding their absence or something. Perhaps it's because I'm always around. Maybe I too am guilty of neglecting our friendships. I know that I don't call or text those who I speak of. Those who will remain nameless because I wouldn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. But of these missing pieces in my life, some of them I'm willing to forgive, those who I love so dearly that it doesn't really matter to me that I'm not an important part of their lives, because i know, just as they know. Life happens and it's understandable. Perhaps I misunderstand, maybe these are the real friendships where those others are the ones who aren't really the friends.
I'm so confused....
As of right now I'm in the process of grieving those lost friendships, I'm close to ready to wash my hands of them, move on with my life and stop checking in to see if they've responded at all, ever. I guess it's sadder really that I worry about hearing from them, that I look forward to it or something.
Oh well, guess people change. I guess it's time for me to do the same.
It took me a day or two, but I finished it. Stay tuned for today's post, did you catch my Music For A Tuesday?
Hang in there!