Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Day 29, 365 days of 2011

Dear Day 29,
This woman is tired. I need more sleep.  I enjoy being so busy at work on this lovely ground hog day.  I wasn't able to see the movie today, but it's OK.  I need sleep more than anything else.
I think even my picture shows my need for sleep. Oh well though, other things to do and say, I guess.

We went to the health club or gym or whatever you are suppose to call those places.  I was overwhelmed with that place. Touring through it is definitely easier than actually running in there and jumping on a machine, a machine I have no idea how to operate.  I'm hopeful to be able to check it out a little better tomorrow and see what classes they offer, maybe cut down on some of the feeling overwhelmed.  Putting a weight on everything I'm attempting to do goes to show how puny I really am.  Sad!  I'm not sure I got over 20 pounds on anything.  Was on a...running...machine and went  a mile on that thang, in like 19 minutes or something.  Damn!  My goal is a mile in like 14 mins.  Damn Damn Damn. I've got a lot of work ahead of me.  If it weren't for my dedication to this career change I'm shooting for, this shit is definitely not for me!  I can't wait until it's all over, I pass my physical test stuff and I can sit down, preferably in the sunshine on a bench in like 85 or 90 degree weather and smoke a fucking cigarette!  That's right!  I said it!  SMOKE A CIGARETTE!  That will be the tastiest cigarette ever!  I will attempt to not smoke anymore after that !  haha.. I'm still smoke free, I've lost count.. Maybe day 6.  It amazes me how the smallest things I do make me want a cigarette.  It seems like I need a complete overhaul on my life or something.  Very depressing. I like me. I like my routines, most of them.  It's terribly upsetting to know that one alteration like not smoking is going to somehow affect what seems like EVERYTHING I do. 

I'm at a lose for moving... Ugh, damn what else can I pile on to the top of all this shit I've got going on right now!  Really?!! There has to be something else.  Oh well, I will come up with it tomorrow.  Goodnight my readers, fellow bloggers and followers.  It's a good day!  Even better night now that I'm crashing.. .haha


  1. Just follow your goal. You can maybe put some photos on your fridge (or anywhere you often look at) for encouragement.
    You can do it!

  2. I am soooo right there with you on the lack of sleep battle... sitting here at work now and would give my spleen for a pillow right now...

  3. Congrats on the dedication, I need some of that - send it my way, please!

  4. Thanks everyone... Still lacking sleep, haha. But it's my addiction to facebook.

    Kristen- sending dedication vibes your way!


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