Dear Day 29,
This woman is tired. I need more sleep. I enjoy being so busy at work on this lovely ground hog day. I wasn't able to see the movie today, but it's OK. I need sleep more than anything else.
I think even my picture shows my need for sleep. Oh well though, other things to do and say, I guess.
We went to the health club or gym or whatever you are suppose to call those places. I was overwhelmed with that place. Touring through it is definitely easier than actually running in there and jumping on a machine, a machine I have no idea how to operate. I'm hopeful to be able to check it out a little better tomorrow and see what classes they offer, maybe cut down on some of the feeling overwhelmed. Putting a weight on everything I'm attempting to do goes to show how puny I really am. Sad! I'm not sure I got over 20 pounds on anything. Was on a...running...machine and went a mile on that thang, in like 19 minutes or something. Damn! My goal is a mile in like 14 mins. Damn Damn Damn. I've got a lot of work ahead of me. If it weren't for my dedication to this career change I'm shooting for, this shit is definitely not for me! I can't wait until it's all over, I pass my physical test stuff and I can sit down, preferably in the sunshine on a bench in like 85 or 90 degree weather and smoke a fucking cigarette! That's right! I said it! SMOKE A CIGARETTE! That will be the tastiest cigarette ever! I will attempt to not smoke anymore after that ! haha.. I'm still smoke free, I've lost count.. Maybe day 6. It amazes me how the smallest things I do make me want a cigarette. It seems like I need a complete overhaul on my life or something. Very depressing. I like me. I like my routines, most of them. It's terribly upsetting to know that one alteration like not smoking is going to somehow affect what seems like EVERYTHING I do.
I'm at a lose for moving... Ugh, damn what else can I pile on to the top of all this shit I've got going on right now! Really?!! There has to be something else. Oh well, I will come up with it tomorrow. Goodnight my readers, fellow bloggers and followers. It's a good day! Even better night now that I'm crashing.. .haha