I found amazement in myself these past hours.
I found myself lost in the darkness seeking the person I once knew.
The person who could only say "Eff You".
The one who could walk away and just not give a shit.
I missed her most of all yesterday as a strange realization and fear struck home and shook the naive innocent me into something sad.
I didn't want fear, I didn't want stress.
I didn't want love.
I'm amazed, simply because I made it through.
That I came out victorious and the myself I thought I wanted to run hand in hand with,
she is now a part of me that I know no matter how hard I try to lock her away,
she is always a part of me and I need her.
I need her to keep me...
I can keep on loving!
She says it is OK!