Thursday, November 29, 2012

RIP, Mama Monkey Butt

We laid Mama MB to rest on Wednesday, November 28th, 2012.  It was a very sad day and the day that confirmed it all. No pinching needed, this is not a dream. My Mama MB has left this world.  She is soaring now above us all in her heaven.  With her Dad and as Pokey says, our poor little deceased Rhino (the guinea pig).

I miss her so much.  She was a part of my everything.  For weeks now I've cried many a tear worrying over the "what ifs" those what ifs are confirmed and though I thought it would be harder, I thought I could run away from it all.

But I can't, for the sake of those that I love. I can't leave this place.  I just can't fathom the loss of losing everyone around me as well. For something so selfish as weakness. 

I miss my Mama MB. I miss her more than I've missed anything else in this world. I've lost my mind on many occasions and this loss is far greater.

I want to again, thank you all. With everything that is left of me.... For your kind words, for being here to read my words. To share with me your stories  of loss as well.  You've no idea how much you people mean to me and the times you've helped me through so far in this short lifetime of ours. 

Thank you... 

- still hanging in there


  1. Everything I try saying sounds hollow to me so I'm just going to say that I am sorry for your loss and promise you that while she may have passed, she will never leave you. For the rest of your life you will find yourself remembering her for the oddest reasons and you will grow to look forward to those moments. I am very sorry you lost her but she is still there. You'll see.

  2. I can't add anything to what The Ranting Monkey said. My heart goes out to you.

  3. My heart aches for you. I'm sending the biggest virtual hug through the computer.

  4. RIP
    feeling very bad...
    through you post I felt myself connecting with her as well :(

  5. Now the hard part- not so much filling the void of her loss, but the void of the time she required the last few weeks.

    I remember when my dad died and left me alone in my now-house. I had to leave Larry King on at night for about two weeks just to cover ambient noise. This will be a very good time to connect and not run away, trust me. In a couple months or so, then you can begin the emotional unpacking. (Note I did not say, "get it done.") Hugs to you and Pokey.

  6. I've lost my grandfather 11 years ago and I still remember him very often even though I was only 13 when he died. Loosing him was one of the hardest times in my life because we were very close... I'm still very grateful to everyone who were there for me. In moments like this you see who the real friends are... they know when you only need a hug and silence, but they are happy to listen to you when you need to cry and talk about the ones you lost... Be there for pokey and your Dad and they'll be there for you...

  7. My Dad passed in 1996 and my Mom in 2006, I still think of them every day. Even though I believe they are right here with me all the time, there are still those moments of feeling loss, sadness and tears. But the happy memories that I remember, and knowing what my parents sacrificed so that I could have, outweighs all the sadness combined. It takes time, you never get over it, but you can get past it. Peace and Love

  8. I think you're dealing with it as best as you can. Grief is a tricky road to navigate.

    Beautiful flowers and I am sure Mama MB had the best send off a family could give her.

  9. I was late getting to this post as I just haven't been back to reading blogs lately. I am so very sorry my friend and will continue to pray for you and your family as you move forward and remember your sweet mama.


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