Life is... grown up.

I'd never given much thought as to what I would be when I grow up. Even as a child, I don't recall ever saying.  With the  exception of the occasional joke that I would be a stripper or something.

Completely out of the question, considering I've zero abilities to dance... Among other things!

But yea, I never really gave  a thought as to what I would really being doing.

Now I sit here ... as an grown up child adult and still I have no idea what I want to be. Or what I should be doing.

I can't say there is a void or something missing. I just wonder

Is this it?

Is this forever?  Is this what I will always be doing. Nothing... Nothing of importance .. With the exception of my monkeys, I've nothing much to show for this life. No other GRAND  memories.

I wonder, if I'd given it more thought. Would I be doing something else? If I'd chosen the football star? Of if I'd actually tried to look the part, would I have gotten any further? 

Life is weird.

And to be honest, I don't know that I would change a thing if I were able to go back in time.  Well, maybe  a thing or two. 

One day I'll know.  Then!  THEN!  It will be GRAND!

-Hang in there

Project: Full Plate part 1

E Monkey had his first watermelon this weekend. It was a lovely weekend, finally.  It seems a lot lately we're so busy and running wild. It was nice to just kind of hang out for  a minute. I found myself forcing myself not to run out to the car while my sister in law sat with the boy. I made myself walk and breath in some deep breaths.  He is by no means a handful or anything, yea that was a lie. E Monkey is ALL OVER THE PLACE, he's such a silly little monkey. I imagine you all can tell from all the photos I share though.

Father's Day was good. I missed my Dad some, he decided just to go home and we went out to Mr MB's parents house for the day.  Which was nice, Pokey enjoys the pool and she was able to see her uncle.  Good times ..

So to the point, I'm working on too many things right now, I'm sure blogging shouldn't be my thing at this moment, but it's a nice break from the work.  Besides it gives me time to get the ideas down somewhere, rather than lost with my next random thought.

So my list, as if you care. But honestly I think my main goal in sharing is so that if some of you have a source or perhaps know of something that could help me .... You could forward that information my way, lol. See, it's working in two ways for me. Right?

Top of the list:

• My Sisters Baby Shower.... I haven't shared have I? My sister is expecting her third child. They've been blessed, it's a BOY.  I've warned her the best I can about how much of a mess they are. Unfortunately the Dr's have also told her little man has spinia bifida.  Very sad indeed but at this time, it's a mild case. It's a very small opening in his back,  he should be able to walk, suffer no bladder control issues and should not need shunts in his brain.  She's blessed indeed. 
• Vacation Bible School.... I signed up to head the nursery class this year. It's exciting and a little overwhelming at times.  But thankfully Pinterest has helped me a lot with what few  ideas I can scrap together for the kids.  We probably won't have very many but  I think it will be OK.  A few is better than none and I know there will be atleast mine and the lady who is helping me :) 
• Ya know someone said something the other day and it bothered me. Nothing unusual there right?  Well this to me seemed like something that could seriously harm someone in the long run. Just hurtful and almost abusive in nature.  Of course it's not my place to judge or even to say anything to this person. Who am I to tell someone how not to mistreat their children? Or how that sounded to me.  I don't know these people well enough to attempt to understand their, what seems to me, VERY DYSFUNCTIONAL relationship. Like I have all this room to talk though right?! That's been bothering me though, it really bothered me when I first seen/heard it, but it's just been hanging around for some reason.  It will pass soon enough I imagine.  People just don't know what they're doing sometimes I think. Either that or people are just really.....hard.
• We have chickens .... Did I tell you?  The MB family has THREE chickens. I won't explain in detail because Mr MB was really negative about the whole reason behind my chickens, but whaetevs. A MB can't care for long, right?  It's my little work in progress, but we're making it work

 It may be a bit easier by the end of this to understand the messes I get myself into these days.  So we got this chicks, around Easter, long story. So now I have chickens, three of them and they're all girls. So my new intentions are to utilize these chickens for food purposes.  As you can tell by their living quarters... There is still work to be done. 

Nightmare!!  At times I'm like OK strike that, I will just continue to buy my eggs at Kroger and be done with it.  Geez. 

• Next up... My cloth diaper addiction. Luckily I've satisfied that addiction and it's safe to say .. I AM DONE BUYING CLOTH DIAPERS.  My name is Monkey Butt and I am not an addict!!!  :)  But now, I've got this great idea ... I can have more monkeys, use those cloth diapers for those monkeys and then start making cloth diapers at home and sell them!! It's a genius idea isn't it!?!?!?!

So this post is getting rather long .... from what I've read on best blog tips ever, yea I made that up. But seriously it told me I shouldn't write long blog posts, because people are in a hurry and don't have time for it.... go figure.

So if you've made it this far...You're a true Dingleberrie.  Thank you for Hanging in There. I'm going to end up with a series on this project: Full Plate ...

To be Contd.

Monday Mash up: Episode 13

I logged in a while ago with intentions of doing some reading, some comments and perhaps get a little MB post on.  A few hours ago, I found the picture you see above.  My occasional Monday Mashup post.  Hey , it's Monday... again.  Glad I'm not seeing and hearing that stupid Wednesday camel, but who doesn't hate on a Monday?  

It was a nice break to stop by and read a few posts today, I miss my Dingleberries.  I'd say I always mean to log in and do some reading, post a little and then something happens. I get distracted at work or too occupied on facebook to really just dedicate the time my blog needs.  

It's not smelly in the land of MB at all lately.  I really gotta work on that.

I guess honestly I never gave much thought at how busy life is with two children, with a home and job and school age kid.  It makes no sense really, because since Pokey was a year old I've  had  a job. The same job as a matter of fact.  Only since little Monkey does it seem to be slightly overwhelming.  I don't understand.  Not one bit.  How can this be? 

Here we are, already in the month of November. My birthday is this month as is Thanksgiving and the anniversary of my Mama MB's death. I remember last year, like it was yesterday. I as so scared, selfishly, that she would pass on my birthday. I remember praying, please don't let her pass on my birthday.  I'd like to think I'd come to terms with her passing.  That it had been long enough for the bleeding to stop.  It's still bleeding. I come down our street, every day and say Dang I hadn't seen or talked to mom in forever .... oh yea, I remember.  It's still really fresh and still bull that she's gone.  It all starts with Pinktober and just spirals down from there. Now we're working on Thanksgiving plans.  Sometimes, I miss the biggest part of what I'm thankful for. I'm still thankful for so much, still thankful for Mama MB.  Even if she is gone, I'm thankful for what time I had her for.  

Things have been going well, other than being broke as sin and trying to catch up on bills.  We're doing good. Lil Monkey is a talker and just so precious. Those of you who are my friend on FB know just how adorable my little Monkeys are :)  

Life is a strange and interesting place most of the time.   

Thanks for always being here my Dingleberries. 

-Hang in there!