Life is... grown up.

I'd never given much thought as to what I would be when I grow up. Even as a child, I don't recall ever saying.  With the  exception of the occasional joke that I would be a stripper or something.

Completely out of the question, considering I've zero abilities to dance... Among other things!

But yea, I never really gave  a thought as to what I would really being doing.

Now I sit here ... as an grown up child adult and still I have no idea what I want to be. Or what I should be doing.

I can't say there is a void or something missing. I just wonder

Is this it?

Is this forever?  Is this what I will always be doing. Nothing... Nothing of importance .. With the exception of my monkeys, I've nothing much to show for this life. No other GRAND  memories.

I wonder, if I'd given it more thought. Would I be doing something else? If I'd chosen the football star? Of if I'd actually tried to look the part, would I have gotten any further? 

Life is weird.

And to be honest, I don't know that I would change a thing if I were able to go back in time.  Well, maybe  a thing or two. 

One day I'll know.  Then!  THEN!  It will be GRAND!

-Hang in there