Thursday, February 27, 2014

Possible addiction


Happy Thursday dear Dingleberries,

It's a hectic day around here today for some reason. It's been one of those weeks where the phones aren't ringing very much, but for whatever reason my desk is covered in things for me to do.  There isn't really an end in sight of the list either, go figure.

 So the topic for today, the thoughts I've had on my mind, knowing I need to put them down and sort them out. I've been reading, what with the courses I've signed up for.  The book I was looking through last night tells me that I need to put my thoughts down on paper and then sort through them, draft them up and then compose them.  Yea, so that's NOT what I'm doing with this post.

I'm rambling...

We have new owners,, did I tell you all that?  Yep, the old couple finally sold and honestly. It is a mess. It's funny how you don't realize  what you have until it's gone. As crazy as they made us sometimes, I really had no idea what all He dealt with sometimes. What with truck repairs and the likes.  Ugh.... Very annoying ...

More rambling ...

So the new boss man came in the other day, I'd sent him out to check out a car.  He comes back in with a bottle of liquor. Said it was laying on the seat of the car, full bottle, never opened. Now I'm not a Brandy drinker, heck I'm not any kind of drinker as of lately.   Though there was a time when I drank, a lot.  I quite enjoyed drinking.... a lot.  So it's been years.

I quit smoking, what like 2 years or so ago and to be honest, as some of you may know, smoking and
drinking, kinda go hand in hand. Just sayin'.

It was really really hard for me to quit smoking, I was one of those smokers that really liked smoking, for whatever reason. Makes no sense I know.  Then again I guess it makes  a lot of sense. I know for sure I'm not the first or the last person to say they actually Liked smoking.

I knew though, there was no way I could quit smoking and continue to drink. I can't drink without smoking! Have you tasted that stuff?   I loved drinking!  Well, I loved being drunk!  I guess that's a common thing to hear people say too. I didn't drink to drink, I didn't drink socially, I drank to get drunk.  And I loved it.  So of course when you take away half of the good of drinking, smoking, there isn't enough left to make it all work.  That and there was no way I could commit to being a non smoker if I were a drinker. So I quit them. Quit them both.  COLD TURKEY.

It was hard.

When I got prego with E last year I craved them, craved the alcohol and the smoking. Weird right?  Of course I didn't do either, not even once, not even a glass of wine. Nothing.  I stayed strong.  Haven't had a smoke or a drink since I quit, like two years ago .

Boss man brings that bottle of Brandy in here the other day and as soon as the gag reflexes calmed down some I started aching for a drink!  Isn't that crazy?!  Never once did I think of myself as week or with any sort of addiction.   Turns out .... There are times when we're all weak.

I've made it though, still haven't had a drink.

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  1. We all have weak moments in life, Doria. You should be very proud of yourself for abstaining this long! I was permanently pissed in my 20's and went on many a bender! It was health issues and medication that forced me to give up, so God knows how alcohol would be affecting me otherwise today! I've never been a smoker but live with three, and all attempts by them to give up the fags often went tits up, they just found it too much of a struggle.

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    1. Not to sound like a brat, but yea, I'm pretty proud of myself, for all of my accomplishments, especially these!!!

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  2. Glad you resisted the temptation. I've never smoked but I was once addicted to two martinis a day.

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  3. Yewwwwwwww, brandy. Okay I drink sometimes (more when I'm with my brothers), but...ewwwww.....brandy. Now THAT will make you sick.

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    1. Honestly have no idea if I've ever even tried Brandy

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  4. I worked at a county liquor store for over 8 years and recognize that bottle on the far right. We only sold 1 bottle a year for the same lady. That's Remy Martin Louis the 14th cognac and costs around $1700 a bottle. The bottle itself is a work of art and made from hand blown crystal. I had a lot of fun drinking years ago, a chance to do it all again I would, however now at my age I like to just mellow. I found no matter the cost, sipping liquor was still offensive to my taste buds.

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    1. yea that bottle is pretty awesome looking!!!!

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  5. I'm an ex-smoker, too, Doria. Interestingly, I don't ever seem to crave a smoke although I am surrounded by smokers here in ZH. The Swiss do seem to love their cigarettes to the point where everywhere I go on foot I see scads of smokers--parents pushing strollers, young folk, elderly men and women, etc. There are even bars and cafes meant specifically for people to puff away! Anywho, keep on keepin' on! x

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    1. I people watch all the time, another bad habit, I see smokers... Makes me wonder if I too looked that funny holding a cigarette. IT's strange really.

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  6. Just running through my bloglist and thought I'd leave a quick 'hello'.

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    1. Thanks Helena, I've been away ... Obviously ...

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