Day 214, 2012

Monday, August 6th

Happy Monday Dingleberries.  Most of you saw my goof on posting my Tuesday's Music today.  Arg!  I will run again tomorrow, so don't get confused. I didn't want to delete it and start over, so there ya go. I fudged it up this week.  A first I know, but we're all human from time to time. 

It was a nerve wrecking kind of day today.  With Pokey and her first day of school.  My ability to take a perfectly normal situation like my child getting on the bus in the afternoon and riding over to her daycare and making it out like an end of the world type thing.  Well, potentially anyway.  Things went well, I went to the school around lunch to confirm she would be getting on the correct bus and called the daycare to make sure she made it. I only called once, well maybe twice!  Just glad things went well.

My big 3rd grader

I'm posta be reading Abraham Lincoln vampire Hunter. I'm not reading, I'm blogging. I'm not even reading blogs, though I did read a few today.  Will do better tomorrow!!

Mama Monkey Butt went in today for CTscans on her brain again. I told you all that she was done with her radiation a couple of weeks ago.  Now she is completely bald and hating it.  With chemo her hair didn't fall out completely. It's gone now.  It looks fine. She won't agree, but whatever!

Please God lets pray that the radiation got rid of the cancer in her brain.  Things seem to get back to normal and she's acting like Mama Monkey Butt and then something clicks in my brain.  It's like I remember everything that's going on, everything that has happened. I feel like a selfish brat because I don't want her to go through this, I don't want her to be sick, I don't want her to have cancer.  I want it to all go away and then I remember her words "It's killing me"  and I'm a mess all over again.  I wish she would keep fighting, I know that she is. She's strong, she's amazing, She's my Mama Monkey Butt and I wouldn't want anyone else.  No one could have done, is doing, and better job at raising good kids, because that's what she did. 

But I don't want Mama Monkey Butt to have cancer, I don't want her to be sick. I want her God, your God, my God, to make it all go away.  Show this woman some mercy and take it all away.  That's what I want, but I'm so scared.  I don't know what to do, what to say, or what to think. 

I'm done and I'm sorry but I guess I just had to get that out.  Thanks for reading, if you've made it this far! 

Hang in there!

(I guess that's all we can do huh?)

Day 213, 2012

It's  Sunday around here right now, slightly stressful because I know tomorrow is Day One of third grade for Pokey.  I'm worried that they will mess up her bus ride again, but I'm hoping they get it right. They haven't messed up since grade K.  Which was terrifying and is the source of my anguish today. But I'm hopeful they don't mess it up again!

Sunday, August 5th

So how is everyone this Sunday?  What's left of it anyways.  Hells some of my Dingleberries aren't even in this country, does that mean you're already on another day or just asleep already waiting for the next day.  It's weird how that works.

I'm still watching the Olympics. I'm not hating it. Right now!

Dreading the whole back to work tomorrow. It's going to suck.

We did the church thing with Mama and Papa Monkey Butt. I actually didn't die inside today listening to it. They managed to talk about things that didn't suck.  His message today, their homework for the week.  Love One Another.  Easy enough right? 

Started reading my book tonight, Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter tonight. Maybe it's something about vampires, but so far Im digging it. 

time to wrap it up and get to bed, first day of school tomorrow.  Did I mention Pokey is super excited?  Well she is and it's should be great fun for her. So while I'm stressing at work and panicking that she won't get on her bus and end up some where in China or something, she will be learning new things and meeting new friends.  Damn, back to eating school food once a week, yuck! 

I hope everyone had an awesome weekend,  Cya tomorrow!

Hang in there!

1st week of school

Well Dingleberries, I'm not doing much better with staying caught up with my blogging. Summer seems to be over already and my dahlin Pokey is back to school.  I'm missing her like mad today, not that it's unusual for me to miss her.  I just hope she is having a blast at school!  Stay tuned for this weeks Monkey Butt post and I will take Friday as the day to play catch up with my week this week!  Have an awesome Thursday!


(photo taken here)