parenting fail #46745132

This made me laugh ... but has nothing to do with this post.  Well aside from it being kid related.

Had [another] an argument with my 12YO this morning (Pokey).  I guess all these prego hormones and her pre-teen hormones are really taking a toll on the both of us.

She cried in her room last night, because "all we do is fight".  

YES I FELT HORRIBLE FOR THIS

So this morning, as usual we're running late and girl has absolutely NO SENSE OF URGENCY.

So I'm trying not to yell and be a crazy mother, without much success.

Long story short, we missed the  bus and on the way to school we're fussing about something and she wacks my arm. I was like WTH?!?!

lol

She knew she'd messed up then, I grounded her and she fussed some more.

So in the end, she said kind of under her breath that she "hates parents".  So what does MB do, yes without thinking.. I begin to get upset, cant help but think about Mama MB and how many times I probably said something stupid like that to her and now... she's gone now.

So me, being an uncontrollable psycho ... I said...  

"Well, one day you'll wake up and you won't have parents... and by then you may be a parent.. or not.. then you have no worries."

INSTANT REGRET!!

Not only am I suffering inside that I miss my Mama MB, but my own daughter "hates parents" 

Keep in mind, I know it's not true and she was just being a kid..

Lord I wish I'd not said those words this morning.

Needless to say, I cried half way to work, lol ..

Parenting man, it's hard sometimes.

-Hanging in there.