Day 31, 365 days of 2011

Hello my readers, followers and fellow bloggers. I'm playing catchup tonight.  Lucky me I read everything you all posted earlier today while I was working late!  Good for me!  Now I'm remembering to post yesterdays photo!  I've been the gym, health club, whatever for the past few days, since the day after I paid them anyways.  I have to go back tomorrow... Its killing me to exercise so much, not literally, I hope, but it's tough. Ive jogged and pushed and pulled until my muscles ache.  Tomorrow morning I must do a "fit test" I've no idea what that is, whatevski.  It will give me the opportunity to GET UP EARLY, UGHHH, and then ask them whatever questions I have regarding the training I need for the police academy thing.  Ugh.. Then when I'm done with that, I'm going to sit my arse into a hot tub and just flipping chill for a while.  Whatcha thunk?

Low and behold, my day 31!

I changed my hair tonight. Grabbed the box off the shelf that looked purple.  My hair doesn't look purple, not at all, but its OK.  It's not a faded red and is darker. I like it... For now!

Good night, for real this time!  I will post something for you tomorrow!  Have a great Saturday everyone!

Day 30, 365 days of 2011

Day 30!

My typical forgot to do it earlier photo!  haha.. As I've already posted a couple of days ago.  I need more sleep!

I didn't do this post yesterday and I'm sorry but my posts are going to be short for the weekend, but am trying to keep up with my days!

Save room for day 31...  hahah.. I told you I was a day behind. Altho I did take my photos, just didn't post them.  Slight pat on the back!

STILL SMOKE FREE!  YES!

Goodnight by readers, followers and fellow bloggers.

For you,

Because I LOVE IT!

Listening to my musik at work, patiently waiting this Friday to end.  I've always loved "Dirty Dancing" since I was a child.  My grandparents, whom we spent a lot of time with, whom I've posted before missing my Popa oh so much and how devastating it was when he passed.  As anal as they were, as well as overbearing and protective of my sister and myself. I love them to no end.  They wouldn't let us watch "Dirty Dancing" when we were kids. Late one night, my mom came home and into our room, knowing what my grandparents would say about such a thing. She snuck us into the living room and plugged in "Dirty Dancing" on VHS and we watched it together. I've loved it ever since.  And hearing this takes me back to all of those good and bad memories with my grandparents and mother fighting the battles of who they thought was better for us.  To this day.  I love my mother more than anyone else, aside my child that is, and I love my grandparents.  But for you all, you should hear Lykke Li sing this.  It's nothing less than BEAUTIFUL!

Thanks for reading.  :)

Day 29, 365 days of 2011

Dear Day 29,
This woman is tired. I need more sleep.  I enjoy being so busy at work on this lovely ground hog day.  I wasn't able to see the movie today, but it's OK.  I need sleep more than anything else.

I think even my picture shows my need for sleep. Oh well though, other things to do and say, I guess.

We went to the health club or gym or whatever you are suppose to call those places.  I was overwhelmed with that place. Touring through it is definitely easier than actually running in there and jumping on a machine, a machine I have no idea how to operate.  I'm hopeful to be able to check it out a little better tomorrow and see what classes they offer, maybe cut down on some of the feeling overwhelmed.  Putting a weight on everything I'm attempting to do goes to show how puny I really am.  Sad!  I'm not sure I got over 20 pounds on anything.  Was on a...running...machine and went  a mile on that thang, in like 19 minutes or something.  Damn!  My goal is a mile in like 14 mins.  Damn Damn Damn. I've got a lot of work ahead of me.  If it weren't for my dedication to this career change I'm shooting for, this shit is definitely not for me!  I can't wait until it's all over, I pass my physical test stuff and I can sit down, preferably in the sunshine on a bench in like 85 or 90 degree weather and smoke a fucking cigarette!  That's right!  I said it!  SMOKE A CIGARETTE!  That will be the tastiest cigarette ever!  I will attempt to not smoke anymore after that !  haha.. I'm still smoke free, I've lost count.. Maybe day 6.  It amazes me how the smallest things I do make me want a cigarette.  It seems like I need a complete overhaul on my life or something.  Very depressing. I like me. I like my routines, most of them.  It's terribly upsetting to know that one alteration like not smoking is going to somehow affect what seems like EVERYTHING I do. 

I'm at a lose for moving... Ugh, damn what else can I pile on to the top of all this shit I've got going on right now!  Really?!! There has to be something else.  Oh well, I will come up with it tomorrow.  Goodnight my readers, fellow bloggers and followers.  It's a good day!  Even better night now that I'm crashing.. .haha

Day 28, 365 days of 2011

Hello Day 28!  For all of my fellow bloggers, readers and followers, if you are up North-ish and buckling down for the winter weather that's upon you, I am sorry. If it makes you feel any better, warmer, whatever. It's cold and rainy down here and we are apparently in the flood zones.  Yay!  I want my warm weather! NOW!  I'm still busy at work, blah!  I think I left there today, feeling slightly accomplished that perhaps I managed to file all the shit that has been piling up this year!  Gah!  New Years at work, has never been so messy, and I've been there 6 years now, sheesh!
Today was pretty productive, if you didn't catch that from above.  And tonight, out of curiosity we ventured to a "health club"  just to check out it and see what all they had to offer, I blogged the other night I was becoming bored, with no intentions of giving up on, my exercise!  So of course we venture out in this oh so LOVELY awful rainy weather and check out the local fitness club. It was slightly overwhelming and didn't look like the place for me, they had crazy rules and we will throw you out and take away your membership if you do A,B or C.  And blah blah. Then of course we go to the bigger oh so fabulous "health club".  To wrap this up, I am now a member of a "health club" with a physical trainer and a lot of classes to choose from.  Plus the kiddo was only 6 bucks a month, whewt!  She will love the pool and rock climbing! 

I'm still smoke free, believe it maybe like day 5 or so.  Still rawking the nicotine patch. Excited for tomorrow. I get to try out my new "health club" if I don't have an anxiety attack while my daughter is busy playing in the kids area, eeep! 

Goodnight my fellow bloggers, readers and oh so faithful followers. I'm sure one day I may have something to talk about other than me!  haha... Cya tomorrow!

Damn....

Good morning!  *grumbles*  The lights seem weird in here, I feel all gloomy, depressed. sad.  I want the sun to shine, it's day 2 with no sun. I'm sorry you are all reading of my bitching.  For real, Sorry!  I can't help it. It's just HOW I AM!


If you're still reading... THANKS!  You are a great friend!


So today, I FAILED!  Yes...FAILED!  I attempted to think I could go without a patch today. I think I was OK until I came into the office.  The office with depressing lights and no window, gloomy and depressing.  I want to be outside.  Perhaps I should just go outside?  So a while ago I attached the patch.  I tried.  and failed! Will try again tomorrow.  I know the directions say to wear them like 6 weeks or something, but I don't want to become addicted to nicotine patches.  Or do I?  Are they safer? NO, fuck that.  If I want nicotine addiction, I want to smoke the damn cigarette that goes hand in hand.  Damn it!  Fuck being addicted to nicotine  patches.  That doesn't sound like any fun at all!  It;s not the same!

I'm ranting!  Day, what 5 and still smoke free! Damn nicotine patches!  I need SUNSHINE!  Have a great day my fellow bloggers, readers and followers!

ps... The smell of exhaust, especially diesel, is really affecting my nose today... Grrrr!

Day 27, 365 days of 2011

Dearest Day 27,
Looks like my days will be filled with indoor shots for a while.  Due to lack of smoking I don't get to venture outside at work anymore, so I won't be getting many shots while at work.  I'm hopeful when the time changes along with the weather that I will be able to get some better, sunny, outdoorsy photos.  *fingers crossed* for such luck,. this cold weather is getting OLD, if I haven't made it clear enough, I HATE WINTER, COLD RAINS, SNOW AND AWFULNESS.  I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SPRING, PREFERABLY SUMMER GETS HERE!  Got it?  Good!  So television is terribly boring, I don't have much interest in it, would rather not watch anything they are airing right now. Of course it's impossible to get outside.  I can't decide if I want to put a trunk rack on my car or go all out and purchase a towing hitch to put under my CAR!  I just don't know. I'm not sure which would be better or if it even matters?!  I just want to be able to take my bike somewhere, without having to actually ride it there!  Is that so hard to understand?  So I've yet to decide, be cheap and just go for the rack that somehow, I'm not sure how they do that, attaches to my trunk?  Or trailer hitch.  Ugh I don't know.  I will decide later, because now I'm off to chase my dahlin' daughter off to bed and make sure the Nintendo DS is closed and not in play.  She is so silly!  Well under roughly 3 blankets and approx 13 toys the DS was indeed open and in play! 

So it's day 4 of my quit smoking project *grumbles*. Today was for some reason harder than any of the 3 before. I'm not entirely sure, perhaps it was the going back to work and school routine, getting up on time, late as usual, and dragging my dahlin daughter out of the bed at the last minute.  I hate that she is like me in regards to sleeping habits.  Ugh!  How to train your child to get out of bed when it's time!  Hey she's back in the living room, for absolutely NO REASON!  *grumbles*.  Now to chase to her off to bed again, OMG, perhaps this is why she doesn't get up on time, maybe it's because she is to busy staying up late, running back into the living room to ask me, "when are you going to bed?"  "it's past YOUR bedtime"  Well yes dahlin it is past my bedtime, because you are not asleep yet and are continuously running into the living room to ask me, why Im not in bed yet?!!   *grumbles*

I need a cigarette, I refuse to smoke a cigarette though.  Makes me....sad.  Oh well, tomorrow is another day, I'm hopeful it's better than today!  To all of my readers followers and fellow bloggers, if you've helped me cope through this task of mine (quit smoking) thank you for your support and kind words!  I lub ya!

ps... I did my exercise tonight, I felt bad though ,because I cut it short out of frustration because Im getting bored with the routine.  I need some change and some other things to do. I'm bored with situps/crunches and pushups- the girly ones.  BORING!  I need a gym!  I need more money to afford the gym.  2nd job? I think so.. Now to find the 2nd job in this horrid economy!